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I get really giddy at the start of a new year. Oh, the possibilities! It feels as if the slate has been wiped clean and I can take on the world with a renewed sense of self. Oddly, this is the first year (that I can recall) where no major changes are happening. Each year for the past decade it seems that new challenges, changes and opportunities where happening. This time around there are no graduations, job changes, moves, homes to move into… it’s just me… and the husband… and I kinda like it.
Ah, and then there’s the 31st birthday today. That’s right thirty-one. I threw myself a 29th birthday bash to salute my 20’s and kick off my last year in it. Looking back maybe I really thought I needed to celebrate it because my 30’s meant that I was old and boring and nothing could compare to the excitement of my 20’s. Then my dear, sweet and very best friend Nikki gave me a surprise 30th birthday that meant more to me than she could ever understand. She kicked off my 30’s by reminding me of what my 20’s lacked – true, authentic friendships. My 30th year was a year of settling in to myself. I’ll be honest, my 20’s were surprising, scary, exciting, heart breaking, full of accomplishments, finding true love and it all flew by in a flash because I was always searching for my next step and my next goal.
Here, in my 30’s I am content. Beyond content. And I finally, finally, finally can slow done enough to realize the blinding amount of blessings I have each and every day. I feel like I am actually savoring life. Today I woke up first at 6:30am (I think) to my husband kissing me good-bye and wishing me happy birthday. And then I woke up again at
7:45am 8:00am 8:15am and read 26 messages on facebook from friends old and new and from family members, text messages and a phone call from my momma all to wish me the happiest of birthdays. All before my feet even hit the floor! Happy birthday to me indeed. Blessings abound.
I lay there in my comfy, warm bed looking at the new curtains that my husband installed that turned my bedroom into a lush hide-away I realized that its easy to see blessings everywhere. And it could be just as easy to miss them. I can be overly sentimental and mushy at times – I can cry in a heartbeat at anything sappy, sweet or sad – and I am okay with that. I’d rather be moved by a moment and look like a crying fool than to not. Call me whatever you want but I am alive and in love, I’m aware of God’s hand in my life and I wouldn’t have it any other way.
I really don’t know what will come of this blog. Maybe it will be my journal. Maybe its a way for our friends and family all over the world to keep up with my insanity (easier for them to decide when they should have me committed!). But maybe, just maybe its meant to be happened upon by others who are searching for the blessings in their own life.
Quotes capture my heart and so I close with these…
-I believe in the sun even when it isn’t shining, I believe in love even when I am not feeling it and I believe in God even when He is silent. ~found where Jews hid during the Holocaust
-If you are going to be used by God, He will take you through a multitude of experiences that weren’t meant for you at all. They are meant to make you useful in His hands. ~Oswald Chambers
-Just to be is a blessing. Just to live is holy. ~Rabbi Abraham Heschel
-Understand that happiness is not based on power or prestige, but on relationships with people you love and respect. ~H. Jackson Brown, Jr.
-Those who trust GOd the most are those whose faith permits them to wrestle with Him over the deepest questions in life. ~Dan Allender
-Do you know how angry it makes God that everyday you walk by the color purple and don’t even acknowledge it? ~The Color Purple
-Change occurs when one becomes what she is, not when she becomes what she is not. ~Ruth P. Freeman
-Love is not blind – it sees more, not less. But, because it sees more, it is willing to see less. ~Rabbi Julius Gordon
-Too many people miss the silver lining because they are expecting gold. ~Maurice Setter
-Accept everything about yourself – I mean everything. You are you and that is the beginning and the end. No apologies, no regrets.
This moment’s blessing is the realization that I have the power to witness God’s hand in my life and in those I love or choose to ignore them. Which do you think I’m choosing to do?